Friday, August 20, 2010

Naturally Failing

This is a weird cycle. This has been a weird few weeks. I am feeling lost without a cycle of meds and IUI's. I am feeling lost in the fact that we are not dealing with a doctor this round. I am not sure the next time we will interact with a doctor. When will we be ready to move forward?

According to my calculations, I should be ovulating this weekend. "Should be" means that if my body is working properly, which according to doctors is about 3 months out of the year, I should be ovulating. Will we baby dance? Yes. Will I get my hopes up once again even though this cycle seems like we are back where we were two years ago? Yes. Will I misread period symptoms for pregnancy symptoms? Yes.

We are trying "naturally" this cycle. We are trying to get pregnant the good ol' fashioned way again this cycle. We are hoping for a miracle this time. We may be hoping for a miracle for a while. I am not feeling ready yet for IVF. I have to get my body and mind more prepared before we take that huge leap.

Love will get us through, but a miracle would help.

17 comments:

  1. I hope this cycle works out for you, and it's really like you say, you have to be ready for IVF and get your body and mind prepared.

    Wishing you all the best

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  2. We're about to embark on an 'old-fashioned' cycle as well. Doesn't it feel weird sometimes? It seems so retro. I always think to myself, you mean there are actually people who get pregnant this way?!? :-) Best of luck to you!!

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  3. The miracles are out there, although I myself can't imagine getting pregnant from fun times with hubby. What does that feel like, I wonder? Anyway, don't give up hope, and try to enjoy BD just cuz it is fun...and have some for me!! HUGS

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  4. You're a strong woman to have the ability to know yourself well enough to know you aren't ready for IVF. I hope you get your miracle naturally so you never have to make that leap!

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  5. We're about to try an old-fashioned cycle as well. I think it's just what our bodies need sometimes. I hope this works for you!!!

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  6. FX that this old-fashioned cycle does the trick for you :)

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  7. Gotta keep hope! Sometimes a cycle away from the dr is better than you think, but you don't realize it until it's over and you've checked your mail and there are no bills! :)

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  8. We are in the midst of an iui cycle and I know next month is a break for us (because of finances). It's hard, but I think taking a break from the dr before starting ivf is a good thing.

    Remember when sex used to be for fun??? :-/

    Good luck this cycle!!

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  9. Hoping for that miracle for you, you just never know...


    ICLW
    #56 Miss Ruby
    http://www.themissruby.blogspot.com/

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  10. Hi there! I just stopped over from ICLW. Good luck with this natural cycle. I know how hard it is to not get your hopes up, but the truth is that you just never know. I hope that this cycle is the one and that you don't have to think anymore about the stress of IVF!

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  11. Good luck with natural conception! It would be nice. I can relate to your feelings about it. However, now on the other side of IVF, I can tell you it's really not so bad as I had feared and I wish I had tried it sooner.But it's really good to take care of yourself before and be as mentally ready as possible...

    Jess
    - ICLW (#74)

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  12. Miracles happen every day and often when you least expect it, I'm seeing my miracle bump grow bigger by the minute :) Visiting from ICLW and wanted to tell you I love your blog title!!

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  13. Here's to hoping for that miracle!!

    ICLW #92

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  14. The "old-fashioned" cycles in between the medicated ones always feel so weird. I hope you do get a miracle and I wish you the best!

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  15. Hoping that miracle finds its way to you this month!

    ICLW

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  16. Hoping and praying your miracle finds you soon!

    #28 ICLW

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  17. Praying for a BFM!!!

    Happy ICLW!
    #171

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