This is a weird cycle. This has been a weird few weeks. I am feeling lost without a cycle of meds and IUI's. I am feeling lost in the fact that we are not dealing with a doctor this round. I am not sure the next time we will interact with a doctor. When will we be ready to move forward?
According to my calculations, I should be ovulating this weekend. "Should be" means that if my body is working properly, which according to doctors is about 3 months out of the year, I should be ovulating. Will we baby dance? Yes. Will I get my hopes up once again even though this cycle seems like we are back where we were two years ago? Yes. Will I misread period symptoms for pregnancy symptoms? Yes.
We are trying "naturally" this cycle. We are trying to get pregnant the good ol' fashioned way again this cycle. We are hoping for a miracle this time. We may be hoping for a miracle for a while. I am not feeling ready yet for IVF. I have to get my body and mind more prepared before we take that huge leap.
Love will get us through, but a miracle would help.