Warning: This post is about sex, orgasms, and more sex. Feel free to skip reading this one if that stuff makes your skin crawl (but since most of us have been there done that I figured it wouldn't be a big problem to write about it!)
Something I haven't written much about on here is the pain I have during sex. It is always on my right side and seems to be by my right ovary. Although I enjoy sex with my husband, I tend to always cringe every time due to the fact that it flippin hurts for the majority of the time. It seems as though something is going to pop or burst on my right side. I usually end up having to tell my husband: "Not so hard, or slow down, or be careful!" Imagine how sexy that is to a man who just wants to make love to his wife, not hurt her. This routine has been going on for many years but I have never really thought too far into it. Just kind of figured that it is normal pain.
Fast forward to today (which happens to be another snow day for both of us - sorry to all of you who had to go to work.) our first attempt at sex since before my laparoscopy. Our first attempt at sex since before the endometriosis was removed from behind my RIGHT ovary. HOLY CRAP BATMAN! It did NOT hurt today! Right in the middle of our baby making session I starting crying because it did not hurt anymore. We were very cautious with this rendevous today since I was worried about having fragile lady parts due to only being 3 weeks out from surgery. Not only were my lady parts not fragile - they are fixed! (Just to insert a side note here - does endometriosis affect orgasms b/c I think today felt like the 4th of July fireworks!) Sorry if that is too much information - but remember I did warn you about the contents of this post! Ha ha!
Once I propped a pillow under my hips after we were done I just started bawling. I was a blubbering mess. The tears were flowing because I was just so excited to not have that pain anymore. The tears were flowing because I didn't have to use my hips to block my husband from hurting me anymore. I just can't believe it. The pain for all of those years was the endo. Now it is gone and my sexual healing can start.
Today also marked the first attempt at baby making this month. I think the tears reached my cheeks today because of that too. I don't trust this thing called sex - at least from the viewpoint of trying to get pregnant. It has hurt us many times before and I just felt incredibly vulnerable today. Here we are again getting our hopes up that this could be the month. But at least this month it feels good! :)
P.S. Sorry Chad for writing about this - I couldn't help it though because I am just so excited! :)