Warning: This post is about sex, orgasms, and more sex. Feel free to skip reading this one if that stuff makes your skin crawl (but since most of us have been there done that I figured it wouldn't be a big problem to write about it!)
Something I haven't written much about on here is the pain I have during sex. It is always on my right side and seems to be by my right ovary. Although I enjoy sex with my husband, I tend to always cringe every time due to the fact that it flippin hurts for the majority of the time. It seems as though something is going to pop or burst on my right side. I usually end up having to tell my husband: "Not so hard, or slow down, or be careful!" Imagine how sexy that is to a man who just wants to make love to his wife, not hurt her. This routine has been going on for many years but I have never really thought too far into it. Just kind of figured that it is normal pain.
Fast forward to today (which happens to be another snow day for both of us - sorry to all of you who had to go to work.) our first attempt at sex since before my laparoscopy. Our first attempt at sex since before the endometriosis was removed from behind my RIGHT ovary. HOLY CRAP BATMAN! It did NOT hurt today! Right in the middle of our baby making session I starting crying because it did not hurt anymore. We were very cautious with this rendevous today since I was worried about having fragile lady parts due to only being 3 weeks out from surgery. Not only were my lady parts not fragile - they are fixed! (Just to insert a side note here - does endometriosis affect orgasms b/c I think today felt like the 4th of July fireworks!) Sorry if that is too much information - but remember I did warn you about the contents of this post! Ha ha!
Once I propped a pillow under my hips after we were done I just started bawling. I was a blubbering mess. The tears were flowing because I was just so excited to not have that pain anymore. The tears were flowing because I didn't have to use my hips to block my husband from hurting me anymore. I just can't believe it. The pain for all of those years was the endo. Now it is gone and my sexual healing can start.
Today also marked the first attempt at baby making this month. I think the tears reached my cheeks today because of that too. I don't trust this thing called sex - at least from the viewpoint of trying to get pregnant. It has hurt us many times before and I just felt incredibly vulnerable today. Here we are again getting our hopes up that this could be the month. But at least this month it feels good! :)
P.S. Sorry Chad for writing about this - I couldn't help it though because I am just so excited! :)
Aw, I'm so happy for you Sara! I don't have Endo, nor do I know what it's like. But, I can't imagine being in pain every time I had sex. What a relief for you! Yay for being fixed! :)
ReplyDeleteWell this is FANTASTIC news!!!!! I'm sure your hubby is so relieved that you can just ENJOY him and sex now like it should be enjoyed. Bless your heart for dealing with all that pain and thinking it was normal. Yay yay yay!!!!!! So happy for you!
ReplyDeleteI read your first paragraph and immediately thought "I wish someone had told her that was a symptom of endo." I'm so glad that the surgery has made the pain go away!!! There's so much we're not taught about our bodies - I wish we could learn about these things in high school health class instead of after ages of TTC and finally realizing there are issues!
ReplyDeleteYahoo! Bless your heart for living with the pain, especially while trying to get pregnant.... we all know how much sex goes into that endeavor! Hooray for sexual healing!
ReplyDeleteI am so annoyed as my last comment got messed up but it went something like this: I am so happy to read about your pain free sex ( kind of creepy, huh)? What a fortunate result of your lap, now if your body makes a baby, perfect!
ReplyDeleteSqueee!!!! I am sooooooo happy for you! And I bet the awesome orgasm is because you WEREN'T in pain. Meaning you were able to really let go and enjoy yourself. So in that way, it did affect you (the endo). Oh, my goodness, I am so, so excited for you! I want to jump up and down and clap!
ReplyDeletefirst: 3 weeks later!! YIKES! I was WAY too scared and put it off for like 6! (plus I think they made us) 2nd: isn't that the BEST!! I was the EXACT same way and after surgery..it was fabulous :) Your reminder of that feeling makes me want to do the surgery again bc my pain is back and it makes me, well, sorta not want to do it!
ReplyDeleteSo happy the surgery seemed to be the answer!! I can't imagine it hurting the way you describe. Let's hope you get prego real quick! :)
ReplyDeleteI am scheduled for a lap in the next 2 weeks... i'm hoping I have the same progression as you in the bedroom and that we both get preggo naturally from it!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy that the surgery resulted in something so fabulous!!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that it does not hurt anymore. I hope you enjoy many more not painful times together ;)
ReplyDeleteWhat great news! I can't imagine what that must have been like for you, and how great this new freedom is! Intimacy is so important in a relationship and I hope this helps you build upon the intimacy you already had.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I gave you a blog award on my blog :)
Whoop! That's awesome! I'm not suprised you became emotional, it's a life changing thing-very happy for you!xo
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your kind posts on my blog! I am a firm believer in acupuncture now, so if you can find someone you are comfortable with, I say go for it!!
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